The Desire to Not Exist is a mysterious feeling. Using Neon Genesis Evangelion I explain why we feel the desire to not exist.
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Sources:
– The Brothers Karamazov by Dostoyevsky
– The Myth of Sisyphus by Camus
– The Sickness Unto Death by Kierkegaard
– Neon Genesis Evangelion
– The World as Will and Representation by Schopenhauer
– The Four Fundamentals of Psychoanalysis by Lacan
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Man I love that you used Evangalion for this.
I want to exist without anyone knowing i exist
U solved a problem that I months been involved😂❤
Play the berserk sound in the background must be a crime
Time to start reading my dusty “The brothers Karamazov” book😭
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How can i have a desire when i dont even exist.
Each individuated “wave” of phenomenon in some form or another, to one degree or another, desires at its core immersion into the sea of Noumenon; the Unborn/Void, its very source.
Solitary Flight
Fk my life. Fk me. I don't give a shit.
You know it’s really bad when even lying down and trying to sleep is painful
life and death are painful, to not exist is the only absence of it
Demand avoidance. What to eat, getting dressed, physical sensation. All are demands. Non-existence is the ultimate escape of the demand. It's peace. It's a lie
Feeling attacked by the algorithm rn
Inexistence is boring, nothing there.
At 79 been there done that I pray to my Lord Jesus Christ please take me out of this world ASAP and don't recycle me
I think that existing by itself is a responsibility that was put upon us. We never had a chance to decide if we want to exist or not; therefore, the desire not to exist will always exist.
Existing alone comes with lots of other responsibilities, starting with accepting yourself. I can tell from personal experience that I always wanted to be loved by someone, not the way friends and family do, but a partner.
When a girl showed the slightest affection towards me, I was immediately hooked to that person. Even if she treated me badly or unfairly. The feeling of something is better than the acknowledgment of nothing.
I am sure that I seek some type of desire from someone else to feel worth living. I also know that I need to start loving myself first before anyone else can love me, but it’s too hard for me to do.
The desire not to exist translates to not wanting to have any responsibilities towards anyone, including yourself.
I would much rather never existed if I knew how life would be. It can always be worse, but everyone has their own boundaries of what they can handle. If these boundaries are crossed, only two options follow. Walking through the pain or giving up. Irrelevant of how dumb it sounds, the feeling of nothingness sounds pleasing; sure, you won’t feel nice emotions anymore, but you also won’t feel any bad ones.
It is sad, but it also must be peaceful to never be.
4:12 whats the music here
1:17 say that again
I feel this very often. I am not deepresed, i just have a feeling that i have seen all i wanted to see, and there is nothing extradionary or magical about it.
I feel that way too along with the numbness and screaming in pain inside with the meaningless walks that i do just to feel something even if its pain from my legs but that just quickly becomes useless because that also made them more resilient
i had 10 games of arc raiders that gave me the 13th reason
How do i repost a Video
Searching for a person that doesn't exist (me)
Fire music btw
Great vid thx
So much yap bro 😭
The comments
To exist is exhausting, but to cease to exist is terrifying, But existing is painful; there is no solution, it simply is.
It's like wanting to do something, but all you can do is nothing that makes you feel good; if you do nothing you feel bad, and if you do something you still feel bad.
It's like being in a sealed room where the temperature rises; no matter where you are in the room, it doesn't change anything, it will hurt the same.
In simpler terms, you don't want to live, but you don't want to die.
i hate the existence of myself. somedays i just want a new name new look and just try again. not that i’ve done anything wrong, i just hate who i am.
I think our desire to not exist is a simple answer. Our souls are tired. Maybe it's lived for far too long.
I wish i didn't exist because i feel like no matter what i do, i will be judged for every little thing i do. I have lived with my grandma since i was 10. She literally points out every little thing i do wrong, and if i don't apologize, she will spin it into a huge argument about everything i do wrong all the time, and how i never fix it or listen. I'm sorry but i can't fix 300 mistakes at once, i try my best, but if i left a spot on the countertop or a dish to soak in the sink, i don't need to be shamed for it all day everyday. I don't need to be shamed because someone else turned a light on, and i passed by without shutting it off. Sometimes i shut down and just don't do anything because i feel like no matter what i do, ill never get it right, and there's no point. Its so exhausting. When i say i wish i didn't exist, i don't mean that i want to exist alone, i just don't want to at all. I feel like when i die, if i make it to heaven, ill just ruin everything because i feel like no matter what god does to me, ill never be perfect or worthy. I try to change but nobody notices how i change for the better, just the mistakes i make on the way. And they dont hesitate to make me feel guilty for it.
1:18
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残酷な天使のように
少年よ 神話になれ
BERSERK MENTIONED!!!!
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How to live with this plus the guilt of bringing other humans to this earth. Yet you have such a void that you cannot pour enough into them. Adding to an existing overwhelming guilt.
I desire nothing in my life and don't want anyone in my life
I wish I was a tree
My friend wanted that so bad that she got sick of it and took her life . Gosh I miss her so much
"I don't wanna die. I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all," – Freddie Mercury in Bohemian Rhapsordy