Please reply 🙏 I really need help from someone who understands. I’m 15 and I’ve been having deep and scary thoughts since I was 8 or 9 — about life, death, who I really am, and what this world even is. Lately, it came back stronger and I feel anxious all the time. I’m scared to sleep alone and feel like I’m living between two realities. I’ve tried to talk to others but no one really gets it.
Now I’m beginning to question that I had a dark night of the soul because mine has been four years of losing my husband instantly losing all my money, losing my job three months later, losing my home, becoming homeless trying to get a job can’t get a job get a job Job fired four times in four years that’s unheard of can’t get a job. It’s been 11 months on and on fighting with institutions to be able to graduate but can’t because it’s a verbiage it just doesn’t stop.
Being awake is noticing what’s happening & being present. Being awakened is realizing something important about yourself or life. Spirituality is connecting to your inner world, your values, & reality in a way your mind & body can understand. Awakening is about awareness, presence, & connection. It’s noticing your thoughts, emotions, & patterns clearly & responding with honesty, clarity, & compassion. Inner guidance is practical, your intuition, conscience, & emotional awareness working together in real life.
This journey is one of self-mastery & healing. The more you notice reality, solve problems, & act with awareness, the smaller your irritations become & the less discomfort you experience. Clarity grows as you address challenges & practice grounded awareness. Healthy awakening brings self-awareness, inner stability, & real understanding. Understanding is recognizing what is genuine & truthful. Extending it when appropriate is healing; holding back when needed is equally wise.
Awakening is not escaping life. It’s balancing reflection & engagement, knowing when to turn inward & when to act outward. Every step toward honesty & presence, no matter how small, is real awakening. The truth is: being awake & spiritual is about clarity, responsibility, honesty, understanding applied wisely, & connection to reality within yourself, your relationships, & everyday life.
Are you Awakened? To me at least, Awakening has stages, as you try to find yourself, which I believe you never do in the human body, but you try, no one is perfect. Once we discard the Body, you have no physical limitations, but that doesn't mean you stop learning or experiencing things.
Very nice videos. While watching you, I honestly felt this would fit you perfectly. You can create your own healing profile, offer classes, and even reuse your existing YouTube videos as content. If you're curious, feel free to explore it anytime
Kinda seems effed up. Cos bliss was like 3 days and the dark night was like years and now the void is like wtf. I'm noticing I'm integrating alot that I've learned so maybe it's a transition between void and groundedness. Still don't know wtf I'm supposed to do in life and that alone is unsettling cos I can't bring myself to do something without soul. 😕
Now do the easy shadow work. Apply your shifts in real life through your truth and authenticity. Live in venerability and love and trust life to dance with you as you drop your resistance. Let yourself shift from the absolute truth of the void to the absolute truth of the one and give permission to hold that paradox. Be in love
spiriitual awakening doesnt work like this. she is misinformed big time. the dark night of the soul can last decades for some people. currently im on year 44 now. still waiting for a life purpose.
Seeing the Lies Is Only the Beginning A lot of people right now believe they are awakening because they can see the lies in the world. They see corrupt systems. False narratives. Manipulation. Control structures. And that is the beginning of awareness. But it’s important to understand something clearly: Seeing the lies externally is not awakening. It’s the first layer of realization. Awakening doesn’t actually begin until the focus turns inward. At first, awareness feels empowering. You feel like you “see through” things. You feel informed. You feel awake. But that stage can become a trap. Because knowledge alone creates the illusion of awakening. You can collect information, expose deception, and understand how systems work, and still be completely identified with the same patterns, fears, and self-deceptions. That’s what I call the fake awakening: when knowledge replaces honesty with self. Real awakening starts when it’s no longer just “the world is lying,” but instead becomes “where have I been lying to myself?” And that’s where discomfort begins. Because at that point, things can no longer be rationalized. You can’t hide behind information. You can’t blame systems, governments, religions, or other people. You can’t intellectualize your way out. The mirror turns inward. You begin to see: your own avoidance, your own self-betrayal, your own excuses, your own fear-based choices, your own identity attachments. That’s the breaking point. Because now the collapse isn’t external, it’s internal. This is where surrender begins. This is where honesty with self begins. This is where the inner self comes online. Knowledge alone doesn’t transform consciousness. It only rearranges the furniture. Transformation happens when the false self can no longer be maintained. That’s why awakening often feels destabilizing. Not because something is going wrong, but because something false is dissolving. Seeing the lies in the world is awareness. Seeing the lies within yourself is awakening. And the moment that happens, life can no longer be lived the same way.
I had this set of problems for years but then one night I feel the need to awaken others too, a bunch of bad things happened but then my brain started being clear now. I think I uncorked the meaning of life.
I love being out in nature
How do you do ground in this
How do you know you're misson
At 4 now
Please reply 🙏 I really need help from someone who understands. I’m 15 and I’ve been having deep and scary thoughts since I was 8 or 9 — about life, death, who I really am, and what this world even is. Lately, it came back stronger and I feel anxious all the time. I’m scared to sleep alone and feel like I’m living between two realities. I’ve tried to talk to others but no one really gets it.
This experience has been so hard I question the creator of this universe as if he is a psycho that wants us to suffer because it never seems to end
Now I’m beginning to question that I had a dark night of the soul because mine has been four years of losing my husband instantly losing all my money, losing my job three months later, losing my home, becoming homeless trying to get a job can’t get a job get a job Job fired four times in four years that’s unheard of can’t get a job. It’s been 11 months on and on fighting with institutions to be able to graduate but can’t because it’s a verbiage it just doesn’t stop.
Being awake is noticing what’s happening & being present. Being awakened is realizing something important about yourself or life. Spirituality is connecting to your inner world, your values, & reality in a way your mind & body can understand. Awakening is about awareness, presence, & connection. It’s noticing your thoughts, emotions, & patterns clearly & responding with honesty, clarity, & compassion. Inner guidance is practical, your intuition, conscience, & emotional awareness working together in real life.
This journey is one of self-mastery & healing. The more you notice reality, solve problems, & act with awareness, the smaller your irritations become & the less discomfort you experience. Clarity grows as you address challenges & practice grounded awareness. Healthy awakening brings self-awareness, inner stability, & real understanding. Understanding is recognizing what is genuine & truthful. Extending it when appropriate is healing; holding back when needed is equally wise.
Awakening is not escaping life. It’s balancing reflection & engagement, knowing when to turn inward & when to act outward. Every step toward honesty & presence, no matter how small, is real awakening. The truth is: being awake & spiritual is about clarity, responsibility, honesty, understanding applied wisely, & connection to reality within yourself, your relationships, & everyday life.
Hmmmmmm "the mission"
Why am I so drawn.. it's like the mission knows me and I know it very well too.
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You are wrong.
Are you Awakened? To me at least, Awakening has stages, as you try to find yourself, which I believe you never do in the human body, but you try, no one is perfect. Once we discard the Body, you have no physical limitations, but that doesn't mean you stop learning or experiencing things.
5 going into 6. ❤
Stage 7, you shave the side of your head 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Im finally embarking on stage 27: Shaving my balls without nipping and bleeding from my sack.
Very nice videos. While watching you, I honestly felt this would fit you perfectly. You can create your own healing profile, offer classes, and even reuse your existing YouTube videos as content. If you're curious, feel free to explore it anytime
I must be in stage 3. I am crying for no reason and I'm not an emotional person.
I Came to Realization Today and I Am over the Moon ❤🎉 🌙 😊🎉 Ty ..for this Important Message.. 🙏
How long does this void last lmao
Kinda seems effed up. Cos bliss was like 3 days and the dark night was like years and now the void is like wtf. I'm noticing I'm integrating alot that I've learned so maybe it's a transition between void and groundedness. Still don't know wtf I'm supposed to do in life and that alone is unsettling cos I can't bring myself to do something without soul. 😕
Accurate!!!! 🙌🌹✨🐦⬛🪶
Now do the easy shadow work. Apply your shifts in real life through your truth and authenticity. Live in venerability and love and trust life to dance with you as you drop your resistance. Let yourself shift from the absolute truth of the void to the absolute truth of the one and give permission to hold that paradox. Be in love
spiriitual awakening doesnt work like this. she is misinformed big time. the dark night of the soul can last decades for some people. currently im on year 44 now. still waiting for a life purpose.
Seeing the Lies Is Only the Beginning
A lot of people right now believe they are awakening because they can see the lies in the world.
They see corrupt systems.
False narratives.
Manipulation.
Control structures.
And that is the beginning of awareness.
But it’s important to understand something clearly:
Seeing the lies externally is not awakening.
It’s the first layer of realization.
Awakening doesn’t actually begin until the focus turns inward.
At first, awareness feels empowering.
You feel like you “see through” things.
You feel informed.
You feel awake.
But that stage can become a trap.
Because knowledge alone creates the illusion of awakening.
You can collect information, expose deception, and understand how systems work,
and still be completely identified with the same patterns, fears, and self-deceptions.
That’s what I call the fake awakening:
when knowledge replaces honesty with self.
Real awakening starts when it’s no longer just
“the world is lying,”
but instead becomes
“where have I been lying to myself?”
And that’s where discomfort begins.
Because at that point, things can no longer be rationalized. You can’t hide behind information. You can’t blame systems, governments, religions, or other people. You can’t intellectualize your way out.
The mirror turns inward.
You begin to see: your own avoidance,
your own self-betrayal,
your own excuses,
your own fear-based choices,
your own identity attachments.
That’s the breaking point.
Because now the collapse isn’t external, it’s internal.
This is where surrender begins. This is where honesty with self begins. This is where the inner self comes online.
Knowledge alone doesn’t transform consciousness. It only rearranges the furniture.
Transformation happens when the false self can no longer be maintained.
That’s why awakening often feels destabilizing. Not because something is going wrong, but because something false is dissolving.
Seeing the lies in the world is awareness. Seeing the lies within yourself is awakening.
And the moment that happens, life can no longer be lived the same way.
This is by far the dumbest thing I ever heard of.🤨
I see what will happen to me in the future in dreams
I had this set of problems for years but then one night I feel the need to awaken others too, a bunch of bad things happened but then my brain started being clear now. I think I uncorked the meaning of life.
I’m on stage 3 it’s been tough hopefully I’m past soon
which stage is shaving ur head on one side because u have no "ego" ?